Monday, July 30, 2007

If you think your body and mind are two,
that is wrong;
if you think that they are one, that is also wrong.
Our body and mind are both two
and one.
- Shunryu Suzuki

All vibration is the spiraling undulation of three forces: sattva, rajas, and tamas. All life grows thru union of these gunas so that we may resonate in tune with the polarity of the Universe.

And so, all nature is a expression of cycles: birth and death, pushing and pulling, acid and alkaline, positive and negative, yin and yang, male and female, spirit and matter, ida and pingala. All energy moves in a cycle of consciousness, spiraling and pulsating from the sattva guna (Sat refers to the Supreme Being); the prana powerhouse and the diamond castle of our lady, Sushumna.
Emanating from sattva guna is a positive centrifugal field of force called the rajas guna- the energy of expansive and creative expression that underlines the evolutionary process; quite literally "the glow” in the expression of life that sustains the conscious mind.
The negative centripetal field is called the tamas guna. The Sanskrit word for tamas means, "to perish" and rules the resonance of negativity and the reactive unconscious mind. Tamas is the instrumental purifying source which eliminates that which is not life sustaining.
All vibration is the spiraling balance of these three forces.

Only with harmony may we harvest equanimity, discrimination and wisdom. It is in harmony with the five phases of materialization (Ether, Air, Fire, Water and Earth) that we vibrate with Body and Soul.

Why am i addressing this very important concept of polarity today? Because so often we forget to pay attention to the ever so spiritually sensual oscillation of life; we tend to 'buy into' the black or white mentality when really, all forces work together to re-establish natural balance.

So the sacred breath of Brahma dances and flows, gets stuck and flings undoubtedly inward and down, outward and up..

..inevitably back to the Source.

a bow to all who dance with awareness.
may we continue to learn and be present.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

so this feeling that i've been having, this energy that i cant quite put my finger on...well i figured it out! if you haven't guessed... its PAINTING! which i have been doing religiously for the last few days. these are some images of my new babies. (they're actually really big!)

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

why do i feel like i have tapped into something powerful today? almost like there is too much chi coursing through my body. sure one might say that there is too much heat, an imbalance of some sort. yet this can not be treated with herbs, foods or even breath. what i got is a case of...

a case of...

honestly, i don't know. it's a new feeling. one that makes for better posture, and spontaneous asanas. is it joy? is it just a positive outlook?

"If we have a habit of thinking in a particular pattern, positive or negative, then these tendencies will be triggered and provoked very easily, and recur and go on recurring. With constant repetition our inclinations and habits become steadily more entrenched, and continue increasing and gathering power, even when we sleep. This is how they come to determine our life, our death, and our rebirth." -Sogyal Rinpoche

well, if that is the case, today i declare a new habit of feeling...

Monday, July 23, 2007

"Anyone can revolt. It is more difficult silently to obey our own inner promptings, and to spend our lives finding sincere and fitting means of expression for our temperament and our gifts. "
~Georges Rouault , French Expressionist painter
(1871 - 1958)

Friday, July 20, 2007

Imagine that you had gone all your life without ever washing, and then one day you decide to take a shower. You start scrubbing away, but then watch in horror as the dirt begins to ooze out of the pores of your skin and stream down your body. Something must be wrong: You were supposed to be getting cleaner and all you can see is grime. You panic and fling yourself out of the shower, convinced that you should never have begun. But you only end up even more dirty than before. You have no way of knowing that the wisest thing to do is to be patient and to finish the shower. It may look for a while as if you are getting even dirtier, but if you keep on washing, you will emerge fresh and clean. It's all a process, the process of purification.
- Sogyal Rinpoche

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

"I dream a lot. I do more painting when I'm not painting. It's in the subconscious."

-Andrew Wyeth

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

confusion2, 2004

what is it that stops us from speaking our true language?
the ego mind can come up with a gazillion excuses.

sometimes i think and feel we need a little grace period to fuel our liberation- a pause for some clarity; some stillness to make it sacred. perhaps that is what i have been doing all this time. taking a break.

i feel blessed to have found my place of rest in this universe, and look forward to a colorful liberation.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

on letting go and clarity...

it is a deep and earnest appreciation for life, a parting of the clouds, a spring flower after the storm; it is my 365th day of sobriety. like waking up slowly from a deep and dark sleep, each moment is fresh and frightening. i feel naked, i feel anxious, i feel free. there once was a time when red wine filled my cup, made me drunk with wild and inexplicable poetry, fogetful of body and yearning for soul. now i am empty- learning to steady the dragon with mindfulness and perserverence.

may these next 365 days be filled with glorious determination and fierce dedication to clarity, truth and love...

after all, i got bigger fish to fry.