Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Three Poems for Love

The Moon of Your Love

Not a single soul lacks

a pathway to you.

There’s no stone,

no flower –

not a single piece of straw –
lacking your existence.

In every particle of the world,

the moon of your love

causes the heart
of each atom to glow.

Beg for Love

Beg for Love.

Consider this burning, and those who

burn, as gifts from the Friend.
Nothing to learn.
Too much has already been said.
When you read a single page from
the silent book of your heart,
you will laugh at all this chattering,
all this pretentious learning.

The madness of love

The madness of love

Is a blessed fate;

And if we understood this
We would seek no other:
It brings into unity
What was divided,
And this is the truth:
Bitterness it makes sweet,
It makes the stranger a neighbor,
And what was lowly it raises on high.

Friday, February 08, 2013


There is one thing certain.
Once you have stood
in the midst of that
searing flame,
been struck down
to earth
like a pilgrim
entered by light at last
and have lain there,
not quite certain --

how can you ever know again
what it is
not to be blinded by the light,
never to have gone there
to the top of the snow hung peak
and felt that nameless something
descend onto your shoulders,
your breast,
even as you bent forward
in disbelief.

--Dorothy Walters

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

been a while.

It occurs to me now that I have not updated this blog for quite some time. I've been distracted. 
I remembered a dream from the night of xmas eve in which i was lifted up vertically from my feet into the air by hooks, nails or something and i felt pain right around KD1. So basically i was Jesus. It would be futile to articulate this personalized Christ stigmata but it is remarkable that this dream occurred the night before i finished the above painting. In the morning i read the following quote:
"And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." ~St. Paul. Corinthians 12:9 

Friday, May 04, 2012

le chart

The Sun
“I am”
Best quality: Rulership/Worst quality: Dictativeness
The sun represents your ego, the inner you, your essence, the unchanging part of you – the calm, steady, deep and lasting force felt within you, enabling you to exert willpower, make decisions and direct all the other parts of you life. The Sun represents your will, and its sign determines the dynamic expression of the will, which is carried out through the activity of the other planets in the horoscope. Remember, the sun sign is just the start of your portrait. Think of your horoscope as a painting you. The characteristics of your Sun sign are the first broad strokes that the artist first lays down on the canvas. The artist outlines your general shape, the planes and angles of your face, the way in which you hold your body. In the same way, your sun sign delineates your fundamental character, your core. Are you introspective? Do you make friends easily? Are you pompous or plain, generous or greedy? How do you cope with responsibility? Are you high-strung or easygoing? The answers may be found in a study of your Sun's position by sign and house, and any aspects from it.
Sun in the 12th house
The Sun was in your twelfth house at the time of birth. This may indicate a life full of limitations, obstacles, and human opposition, but at the same time a lot of inner strength and energy. You are urged to pause and reflect upon your own accumulated history. Take some time for introspection. It may result in a purification process accompanied by some remorse of conscience. Internally, you are quite different from the way you present yourself externally. You possess a vast reservoir of energy that may be partially hidden even from your own awarenessYour internal disposition is strong, commanding, open, and of a rare generosity. More and more you should try to bring these characteristics into the open so that they can overcome some of the less desirable aspects of your personality. This sun position is the most likely to become a victim of either one's own or another's repressed shadow( one very 12th house issue). This person identifies with the unknown and thus becomes without being aware of it a walking parody of the very thing he cannot conceive of himself as being. In the chart of an enlightened or perhaps just self-aware individual the imagination becomes the inner authority of his or her life and guides the individual either to the heights of spiritual attainment or to the looney bin depending upon where they are coming from. You can have either the artist whose courage in identifying with the collective( again a very 12th house thing) becomes a beacon to the masses of unenlightened people roaming this planet looking for their place in the grand scheme of things or they turn their powerful imaginations backwards in upon themselves. This latter case causes the individual a great deal of confusion as to where all these ideas, images, sounds, or just random thoughts are coming from. It is the collective and he has a particular unity with all people that once expressed can be very influential, as in the case of politicians and or musicians whose work influences the greater masses of people.

Sun in Virgo  
You are very careful in everything you do, and you put a high value on neatness. You expect others to live up to those same high standards, and you are easily disappointed if they do not. When you see something wrong in someone or something, you don't hesitate to point it out. But you will have to learn to be considerate when you do this, because criticizing others creates bad feelings. You are very interested in learning as much as possible about the world. In whatever you make or do, you apply the same standards of perfection that you want other people to live up to. You like to help others because being useful makes you feel good. You are able to put off what you want for yourself in order to help someone you love do what he or she wants. Others will respect you for this.

Sun Conjunct Mercury  
You have a good mind, and you enjoy talking with people. A good conversation means more to you than many other things, but you may have one problem. This aspect indicates that you like to take the active role in any discussion; that is, you are a better talker than a listener. To a certain extent you can't help this, but if you are conscious of it, you can prevent it from becoming a difficult problem. Your mind may or may not be fast, but it is working constantly. You have a great need to express your opinions, and you can't stand it when people don't take your ideas seriously. Sometimes this aspect means that you have a lot of ability to work with your hands. Certainly such activities as building things or working with gadgets are good for you as a way to release nervous energy that would otherwise build up.

Sun Conjunct Venus  
You have the ability to make others like you. When you want, you can be very agreeable and charming and can even win enemies over to your side simply by being friendly. And this is not just appearance; you are truly a very affectionate person who enjoys giving and receiving love. It is almost too easy for you to find your way through life by being friendly and warm. At times it is necessary to confront people directly and forcefully; otherwise people may not take you seriously, or they may try to walk all over you. You are fond of beautiful things and may have some ability in the arts. At the least you will appreciate the arts and will be able to make artistic judgments without relying on the opinions of others.

Sun Conjunct Saturn  
You are very serious and you will always seem older than you are. Even while you are young, you want to do meaningful work that will continue to be important as you grow older. However, you are likely to be very hard on yourself, either demanding too much of yourself or feeling that others demand too much. You may hold yourself in so much that it is hard to let go and have a good time. Or you may hold back because you feel that others will not let you be yourself. As you get older, it may become more difficult to express your emotions to others, and you may begin to feel lonely and cut off from people. As you grow into middle age, you will begin to feel easier about yourself. Then your sense of discipline and your ability to work hard and long will stand you in good stead with others.

Sun in Virgo, Moon in Libra
Both inwardly and outwardly you are tranquil, easy-going, practical, and full of common sense. Your individuality is essentially hard-working and subservient. Your subconscious mind is afraid of taking the lead in human enterprises and prefers to play a secondary role. Your inner self is constantly preoccupied with detail, and this should make you a very careful worker. Outwardly, you are a Libran person. People view you as companionable and compliant. When you love someone, it is more as a compliment to yourself than to satisfy any deep emotion. You are usually very diplomatic and tactful in your dealings. You work better in professions that require culture and cleverness rather than anything physically rough. You could become a very good diplomat or contact person. There is some tendency to indecision and hesitancy. You find it very hard to say no, and you regret your decisions. You try very hard to please other people and many times you fail through your own anxiety. The key to a better development of your being is to harmonize your inner intellectual qualities with your socially oriented personality.

Sun Conjunct Moon  
You were born near the time of a new Moon, which means that your Sun and Moon are in the same sign, and that sign is especially important in your chart. The new Moon is a time of new beginnings. You like to start projects, which may eventually become quite important, perhaps long after you have gone on to something else. You must learn to think of the consequences of what you are about to do, to see how your actions fit into the larger scheme of events. Also you should be more aware of the impression you make on others. You don't necessarily impress people badly, but you should know what effect you do have. Relationships are very important for your development, more because of what you will learn about yourself than because of what you will learn about others. One great advantage of this aspect is that your feelings and emotions are not usually in conflict with your conscious personality.

Sun Sextile Mars  
You have a great deal of physical energy as well as a vigorous mind. Everything that you do, you do positively and assertively without any great effort. You have a strong sense of fairness and justice, and you will stand up for what you believe. If a friend is unjustly attacked, you will defend him. In a way, you regard your friends as being part of you, so that an attack on them is an attack on you, to which you react accordingly. For this reason you are a good team worker and player, although you can work by yourself if need be. You have good health and need to be active. Try to engage in some physical activity as often as possible.

The Moon
“I feel”
Best quality: Adaptability/Worst quality: Inconstancy
The Moon is as important as the Sun in your natal chart. The Sun sign is a part of you that is apparent to others; it is what others see. The Moon sign is the part of you that you see. The Moon represents your emotional nature and instinctive reactions – emotional responses based on past experiences and unconscious habit patterns that you have developed. It comprises all the little surface peculiarities, moods, and changes that have to do with physical life which are disturbing, fleeting, and changing. It describes the way you behave in instances in which you haven’t had time to think things through, your immediate emotional responses. Have you ever done something that you immediately regretted and thought, “that’s not like me.” It may have been your Moon sign qualities at work. The sign that the Moon is in shows what makes you feel emotionally nurtured, secure, and satisfied. Because emotions run so deep, the Moon sign represents your greatest need. It also shows how you nurture others. Most of the time, your Moon sign will only be apparent to those who live with you, or people that are very close to you. In many ways, your Moon personality is the one you keep hidden. It is your inner core, which feels hate, jealousy, fear, and has fantasies that you often deny even to yourself. On the other hand, it is your Moon personality that spontaneously feels and expresses joy and pleasure. It is the part of you that enjoys the little sensualities of life. The Moon in your horoscope modifies your Sun sign; it brings new forces, different motivations, and spiritual elements to the character of your Sun sign. For example, a Gemini-Sun person with Moon in Taurus will be more dependable than a Gemini-Sun with Moon in Aquarius. Here is another reason why we cannot define a person simply by their Sun sign.
The Moon is also a symbol of fertility and femininity; its sign colors one's relationship with the mother, and with women in general. In a male's chart, it indicates the type of woman he feels most comfortable with. Although the Venus sign indicates a male's romantic/erotic preference in partners, the Moon sign indicates the type of woman he would choose as a lifelong mate (because the Moon "needs" are stronger than the Venus "wants").
The Moon is constantly waxing and waning, from new Moon to full Moon and back. The house position of the Moon in your natal chart shows the area of life where you tend to be the most emotional, and where you often experience changing conditions. The house of the Moon also gives clues to the type of activity that occurs on the domestic scene.

Moon Sextile Mars  
You are quite courageous and daring, and you will stand up for what you believe is right. Although you won't go out and pick a fight with someone, you won't run from a fight either. You like to be free to act on your own without waiting for others. But you also enjoy being the leader or setting the working pace for others, and the pace you set is likely to be quite fast. You have a great deal of energy - enough for several people - and you need to use it up. For the most part, this will attract other people to you. When you do get angry or provoked, you react very emotionally. If someone says something unpleasant, you tend to take it very personally.

Moon Conjunct Venus  
You can be described as a "soft" person who enjoys comfort and pleasure, being with people and having a good time. But beyond this you also have a great capacity for affection. You like people, and you want them to like you. Most people will like you, but probably you won't be very ambitious. You are too fond of pleasure and ease to make a great effort if you can avoid it, and you may not enjoy work very much. But you have your wants too; you like buying elegant and expensive things, beautiful clothes, especially, and you will even work to get them. Just be careful not to get too wrapped up in your own vanity, because in the long run that could make you a shallow person.

Moon Conjunct Mercury  
How well you think depends very much upon your feelings. If you are at all emotionally involved in a situation, as you often are, you can't think about it clearly. You probably think about your emotions and feelings a great deal, and you can describe what you feel to others quite easily. You are open about your feelings, because you don't see any reason to keep them hidden and mysterious. This aspect means that your emotions and your rational thinking are unusually close. Your thinking may be less clear, but also your emotions may lose some depth. You don't like people who are extremely emotional, especially if they make heavy emotional demands. You don't like to be possessed by anyone.

Moon in Libra 
You like life to be beautiful and prefer not to think about things that aren't pleasant. You are affectionate, warm and friendly, but you may overlook other people's faults that you should keep in mind. You are a peace-loving person and do not like to start fights with others. You very much like to be with a group of friends so that you can talk and be friendly with everyone. But when there is work to be done you may try to use sweet talk to get out of work or to get someone else to do it. But people will like you anyway, not for the charm you use to get out of trouble, but for your real charms. Really you are a friendly and loving person, and you should try to develop that side of yourself.
Moon in the 12th house
The Moon was in your twelfth house at the time of birth. Secretly, you enjoy a love of romance and adventure that lends a bit of excitement to your daydreaming. It is possible that the little popularity that you may enjoy in this life will be from some very reserved and secretive circles where your merits are recognized. It can be expected that you will be successful in positions that call for solitude or remote locations. This position can indicate work behind the scenes in an institution, hospital or jail. There may be dealings with public welfare or those unfortunates of life. Conscious or subconscious sensitivity can be damaging if not held in check. You feel some sort of cross to bear which others may not be aware of and many troubles may occur. Secret enemies may try to take advantage of you. Through suffering comes obedience. Your mother may be of great distress to you. Serving others is the safest, shortest road to God. Teach to others what you have learned through your own suffering. Concerning vocation: You prefer little or no contact at all with the public in your job. Symbolically, this position is the author hidden away in the attic, the playwright who will not attend a performance of his work, the behind-the-scenes person. The personality is hidden and may be limited and confined. In work, these conditions are preferred in order to provide maximum security and comfort to the personality.

Moon in Libra  
You like life to be beautiful and prefer not to think about things that aren't pleasant. You are affectionate, warm and friendly, but you may overlook other people's faults that you should keep in mind. You are a peace-loving person and do not like to start fights with others.You very much like to be with a group of friends so that you can talk and be friendly with everyone. But when there is work to be done you may try to use sweet talk to get out of work or to get someone else to do it. But people will like you anyway, not for the charm you use to get out of trouble, but for your real charms. Really you are a friendly and loving person, and you should try to develop that side of yourself.

“I love”
Best quality: Affection/Worst quality: Pliancy (bending too easily, taking the easy way out)
Venus is the planet of love, pleasure, and beauty. It represents your capacity to express affection and to enjoy beauty. This includes your capacity to attract and appreciate the things of the world, whether they are emotional, physical/material, mental, or spiritual things. It defines the type of people you draw to yourself, based on your social values. Things ruled by Venus include: what kind of sex appeal you posses, love affairs, the arts, beauty and beautiful things, adornment, affection, the social graces, harmony, and friendship. Being the planet of pleasure, it points to the kinds of amusements you are drawn to and in what ways you spend your money. The position of Venus in your natal chart can answer such questions as: What kind of lovers do you attract? Are you flirtatious? Do you find happiness in your love affairs, or are you often disappointed? Where do your creative talents lie? The sign of Venus gives important information about how you expresses yourself in personal relationships, especially in love and marriage. It also indicates your attitude toward money, personal possessions, creature comforts, and social and aesthetic values. Your Venus sign also reveals your idea of the "perfect woman." In a male's chart, the Venus sign indicates the type of woman that attracts him. In a woman's chart, the Venus sign indicates the qualities that she uses to attract lovers. The house position of Venus indicates the type of people with whom you establish relationships, both friendships and romances, and where you are most likely to find an artistic outlet.

  • 12th Astrological House
  • This is probably the most misunderstood house of all. The twelfth House refers to the subconscious, the hidden self that exists apart from our physical everyday reality. This includes the unconscious mind, subconscious memory, subconscious habit patterns from the past, mental illness, karmic debts, self-deception, escapism, spiritual realization, limitations, frustration, and ultimately our self-undoing.
  • On a physical, material level, the 12th house includes things that take us away from everyday life: institutions (such as hospitals, prisons, government offices), places of confinement, secrets, secret relationships, hidden enemies, and self-sacrifice for others. It also refers to sorrow, tribulations, widowhood, grief, funerals, exile, seclusion, bribery, subversion, murder, suicide, kidnapping, and endings.
  • For those who believe, the 12th house is also considered to refer to the collective unconscious of all humanity.

Venus in the 12th house
 Reflects a love of transcendence and fantasy. Only those very close to you have a hint of the little known facets of your personality. Regardless of the way you speak and express yourself, when you are alone, relaxed, and free of worry, you can have a sociable and congenial temperament that runs alongside a generous, kind, and attractive character.This astrological combination may lead you into clandestine love affairs. Unless you use a great amount of tact and diplomacy, these secret affairs may create social complications that force premature termination. In the personality: Like Venus in Pisces, they tend to dreamy romantics. There may be a difficult sense of what one really wants, as it tends to be entwined with all sorts of impractical ideals and fantasies. They may desire and purchase to excess in order to fulfill elusive needs, although nothing they would buy would really comfort them. Always something seems to be amiss. In love: Because there is a lack of boundaries when it comes to relating to other people, when someone interests them, they are immediately addicted. They live and breathe the person they are interested in, quickly turning into all out limerence. Sex is not a requirement for them to become imprinted with someone. If this is within a fixed sign, this may make things worse, as the fixation will be constant, as a portion of their full-blown consciousness at all times. If Venus is afflicted, it may be impossible for them to resist the temptation to call, text, email, or make contact, coming off obsessive. The moving up and moving down of courtship may be extremely painful for people of this placement. The downs are difficult, because they already don't feel like they are worthy of finding true love. They may feel that everyone deserves and has a "fated" partner but themselves. When a relationship is moving in the positive direction, it may cause just as much unneeded stress on them. They may have such a rush of emotion that it literally makes them sick from the amount of joy they begin to have. These up and downs may cause them to eat obsessively, or to avoid eating altogether. They may not have a specific type of partner, or may find it difficult to explain what that type is. They will be attracted to all types, but will find unusual personalities or backgrounds to be extremely attractive. They may be attracted to relationships that are secretive or difficult and may not know why. This is more common in problematic charts though. It seems the most attractive people to 12th house Venuses are those that are unavailable. lol ..,In relationships: In a relationship, they may blur what are their needs with what are actually the needs of the partner. People may take advantage of their hypnotic compassion. Sacrifice is often a key word in relationships here. Unless the chart is particularly strong, they may be feeling like they must give up something in order to prove their love: a friend, their home, or something they find important. Similarly, it may be difficult for them to be open with their feelings, not wanting the partner to know just how badly they yearn, for fear of rejection, or of feeling like they will be looked down upon. They don't tend to have relationships that they consider equal. They either end up with relationships where they are doing everything to support someone who is in a horrible situation in their lives, or in strong charts and Uranus impacts, be the one who must consistently be proven worthy to be kept by the partner. In a more "disconnected" chart they may be completely uninterested and remote in the relationship. There may be a tendency to want to be imprisoned by a relationship, preferring someone who is possessive, or whom they can tell jealousy exists for them. When afflicted, they may actually want to see some proof of jealousy, instead of just reading it in the partner's behavior. In strong charts this may make them flirtatious with other people with the goal of eliciting a reaction from their partner. With particularly complex or weak charts, the individual may find it very difficult to hook-up romantically. In more difficult, but conscientious charts, they may decline the notion of romantic bonding as they wouldn't want to "drag somebody down" with them. An ideal partner for them would be someone who can offer stability to their relationship, usually needing someone who is giving and will sacrifice for them as well. The partner needs to offer some form of stability to them. Although their emotional roller-coaster may be hidden, allowing them to stabilize the partner, their exterior doesn't show what's going on underneath, in which they absorb their partner's difficulties as their own. Spirituality: In the more positive charts, they may find a sense of peace from the connection to a higher plane, in which they can fulfill their needs to be loved by a higher power. It is especially difficult, when they are surrounded by people, because they will be pulled apart again from the higher power to be with someone they find attractive.

Venus in Libra  
You are a friendly, outgoing person who likes to have fun with others. You don't like to be alone, because you feel lonely very easily. Fortunately, people usually like you, so you shouldn't have any trouble finding company. In your efforts to get someone to like you, you should be yourself, not what you think the other person is looking for. You like beautiful, graceful objects and fine clothing. You may not enjoy doing hard work. But you will have to overcome this as you grow older, because everyone has to meet life's demands. You may try to get others to do your dirty work for you, but this would be a poor use of this energy. Instead, use your talent to make life beautiful for yourself and the people around you.

Venus Square Midheaven  
This is a positive aspect, indicating that you are a very loving and warm person. You should have little difficulty in getting along with people, because being on good terms with others is very important to you. Just make sure that in seeking love and approval, you don't give up an important part of yourself. The only challenge of this aspect is that you must learn to set your own standards and follow your own goals, and not simply be and do what others want. You have a strong creative drive, and if anything else in your chart indicates artistic talent, this aspect will reinforce it. Often with this aspect, you feel that the world will take care of you even if you make no effort. In fact you may not have to work as hard as others, but you will have to work.

Venus Conjunct Ascendant  
You are probably a very appealing person, and you will always have the ability to charm people, which can be very useful, but you will have to learn how to use it well. First of all, you should not turn on the charm when you don't feel positive about someone. People will quickly recognize when you are sincere and when you are only trying to use them. You may also tend to use your charm to get ahead, when you should depend on real ability. Develop your talents instead of smiling your way through life. You want harmony around you at all times, which is very useful and positive, but you will have to learn not to compromise on issues that are very important to you. When you are an adult you will be very good at working with people and making them feel good.

“I grow”
Best quality: Benevolence (kindness)/Worst quality: Conceit
Jupiter is the planet of good luck, optimism, success and generosity. Jupiter brings joy to life. Think expansiveness and abundance, as Jupiter is the largest planet in our solar system. Jupiter signifies knowledge, higher leaning, breadth of vision, confidence, charity and good-will, frankness and honesty. Jupiter’s knowledge is on a philosophical level (as opposed to Mercury’s day-to-day cleverness). It is the broad view of the higher mind. Psychologically, Jupiter is the search for meaning or truth. As such, it represents law and justice, philosophy, religion, metaphysics, and education. Jupiter encompasses the urge for self-improvement through participation in the larger whole. It urges you to go forth exploring life. Jupiter's sign indicates what you idealize, what your ethical, religious, and philosophical standards are. The sign also indicates where you express expansiveness, where you do things on a large scale. Jupiter in your chart shows where you are likely to receive financial and material benefits, and in turn, where you express generosity to others. The House of Jupiter is where we tend to be optimistic, and the affairs of that House usually flow easily. Jupiter’s qualities include benevolence (kindness), wisdom, morality, and spirituality. If negatively placed in the chart, Jupiter’s energy can be manifested as self-righteousness, excessiveness, squandering, exaggeration, over-indulgence, superficiality, and bigotry. However, even when negatively positioned, Jupiter is protective and beneficial. Over-indulgence and excess often lead to learning the lesson of restraint. Even with a negatively-aspected Jupiter, a person will tend to "land on their feet" when problems arise in the areas signified by Jupiter's House.
  • 11th Astrological House
  • The eleventh House is the House of community, large groups, and friends. It refers to memberships, hopes, goals, ambitions, wishes, social groups, associations, humanitarian interests. It also refers to self-realization, liberty, legislation and regulation 
Jupiter in the Eleventh House  11th house
This indicates that you should have good luck with friends throughout your life and that you like being with others and having a good time. Especially later in life, your friends may be socially prominent people who can do favors for you. Also you are likely to seek friends who will show you new aspects of life, who can expose you to what you would never have seen otherwise. For this reason, your friends are often somewhat older and more experienced than you are, and as you get older, you are likely to play this same role for younger people. Probably you are an idealist with high hopes and wishes for yourself. This does not mean that you are impractical but that you have set high goals for yourself. In fact, if you work hard and remain optimistic, you can probably achieve what you want, especially if you seek out friends who make you feel more confident about yourself.

Jupiter in Leo  
You need to take pride in everything you do, to feel that all of your dealings with others are honest and aboveboard. The more you can feel right about yourself in this way, the better your life will work. The problem is to avoid seeming overly pleased with yourself, especially at those times when you do not really feel very good about yourself. You want everything to be big, for you consider smallness demeaning. You enjoy a spectacle and have a great love of grand and glorious fun. But sometimes it may be necessary to keep yourself from going to extremes in this regard, because biggest is not always best. It is important that you learn to have a sense of responsibility for others and not seek to get ahead just for yourself alone. If you do, others will see it and have less respect for you.

“I evolve”
Best quality: Originality/Worst quality: Rebellion
Uranus represents the unconscious urge to become aware of your true inner individuality (the Sun). Like a lightning bolt, Uranus symbolizes sudden flashes of insight, moments of revelation, and spurts of creativity. Uranus’s energy is usually described as suddenness, revolution, change, shock, and disruption. Like lightning, Uranus breaks into time and fractures our patterns. New ideas break into ordinary streams of thought, bringing innovative solutions to stubborn problems. It is your intuition awakening you to a world beyond our social structure. Uranus forces sudden changes when the usefulness of the old is gone and something newer, something higher and better is ready to take its place. Uranus encompasses technology and all types of electronic devices. Uranus speeds up the mind, making it to bypass logic and arrive at conclusions by leaping from A to Z, shocking people. Uranus seeks alternatives to the common and accepted forms. True to itself, the planet Uranus stands out from the rest of the planets by orbiting around on its "side."  The rest of the planets orbit like a "spinning top," but Uranus insists on rolling on its side like a ball. At best, Uranus encourages originality, versatility and independence. At worst, it encourages eccentricity, perversion and rebellion. Uranus demands freedom.

  • 2nd Astrological House
  • The second House refers to your own money and possessions, what you value, your hidden talents, sense of self-worth, self-esteem (how you value yourself, instead of describing your personality as in the 1st House). Possessions include anything a person owns (except the house/home which is ruled by the 4thHouse): cars, furniture, clothing, moveable property, investments and securities, etc. The 2nd house specifies how you gain and spend your own money (as opposed to other's money in the 8th house), your attitude towards wealth and material possessions, and your potential for accumulating it/them.
Uranus in the Second House  2nd house
As you get older, you may want to be free of the duties and obligations that go with having possessions. This will not affect you very much while you are young, but later, you will come to regard property as more of a problem than a help in your life, and you will try to remain as free of its restrictions as possible.
When you are older, you may earn your living in a way that is quite unexpected, through an unusual occupation in which you move around quite a bit. Whatever you do with money and possessions, and however you make your living, you will very likely use your earnings for unusual and even startling activities.

Uranus Trine Midheaven  
You do not like to be tied to possessions that you must take care of. This means that eventually you will prefer to have as few possessions as possible so that you can go wherever you want without any worries. Very early in life you will decide that you have to follow a path that is uniquely your own and does not follow anyone else's ideas about what is good for you. You want to break new ground, but in order to get there you won't have to battle others. You may change your mind several times about what you want to do with your life, not so much because your mind is unstable but because it is so difficult to find exactly what you need.
You like a certain amount of excitement in your life, to keep from getting bored. You are future oriented, always looking ahead to the next thing to come along.

“I achieve”
Best quality: System and Organization/Worst quality: Selfishness
Astrologers of the past regarded Saturn as "evil" and malignant, indicating dire misfortune and misery wherever it was found in a chart. When Venus wishes for love, Saturn denies her. When Jupiter promises good fortune, Saturn delays it. When Mercury brings news, Saturn degrades it, and when Mars goes too hard or too fast, Saturn will crash him.  But this is not necessarily bad. Saturn is associated with the principles of limitation, restrictions, boundaries, safety, practicality, reality, seriousness, and structures. Saturn is the laws, boundaries and limits set by society or karma. Modern astrologers acknowledge that the hardships brought on by Saturn's limitations, compel one to continue striving for a final product, that although delayed, will be solid and of real worth.
Saturn governs ambition, career, authority, hierarchy, and conforming social structures. It concerns a person's sense of duty, discipline and responsibility, and their physical and emotional endurance during hardships. Saturn is morose and cold, melancholic, and serious. By placement in your chart, it indicates the area of life in which you may feel shame, for a time. This is the area where you have lessons to learn. But this is where your disciplined hard work will lead to genuinely earned, long-lasting success. At its best, Saturn endows organization and order. At its worst, Saturn’s energy is manifested as selfishness. The sign of Saturn also gives clues to the kind of work for which a person is suited and the kind of career he is likely to pursue.

Saturn in the Twelfth House  12th house
Saturn was in the twelfth house at the time of birth. This planet may place many unpleasant and annoying obstacles in your life, and intensify the feelings you have about the limitations of your environment.
Your professional honor affects your feelings very much and you are well satisfied when things go well. Destiny may have to teach you to tell the difference between fact and fantasy more clearly.
Certain complexes nest in your subconscious and show up in your mind as hypersensitivity, wanting to be alone and to do things by yourself so no one will know how you feel. You need a bit of humor and self-confidence. You often feel discouraged about yourself for no particular reason, even believing that you aren't as good as the people you know, without any justification whatsoever. You may feel that others do not like you, and even when they praise you, you can't take it seriously. Also you may have the sense that your personal world isn't very stable, that at any minute sweeping changes could occur that would upset everything. Along with feelings of inferiority, this makes it difficult for you to act decisively when you should. You spend a great deal of time trying to make sure that conditions are safe for you to act without being defeated in your efforts. The important lesson to learn is that most of your fears about yourself and your world are imaginary. As you get older, these problems will lessen and you will become more secure and self-confident.

Saturn in Virgo  
This placement indicates that you will quickly develop a fondness for everything that is clear, precise, practical and definite. You demand orderliness, which you should be surrounded by if you are to develop properly. At the same time, you should not be encouraged to think that order is the only worthwhile aspect of life. Like everyone else, you must learn more human values, for otherwise you could grow up to be quite cold and unfeeling toward other people's weaknesses.
You do not like spending your energies unless you know exactly how the effort will pay off in practical results. But you should try to avoid a totally practical outlook on life, because ideals are important, too.
Very early in life you will develop a strong critical sense, but you must be careful not to turn it against yourself. Probably your standards are very high, which is fine, and you should adhere to them, but also let yourself and others fail now and then without condemnation.

Saturn Sextile Uranus  
This aspect signifies that you are able to pursue a task with persistence and endurance, even when conditions get really tough. Your approach to life is disciplined, and you have no desire to upset the apple cart with impulsive behavior or sudden moves. Yet you don't simply accept your life as it is; you recognize the need to make changes and grow, and you are willing to work hard to do it. Idealism and practicality are well balanced in your mind. You recognize the limits of freedom, but you are willing to exploit your freedom to the full within those limits.
There will be some difficult times in your life, as in everyone else's, but you will come through better than most, because this aspect signifies unusual toughness and durability.

Saturn Sextile Midheaven  
This signifies that you have a strong sense of inner discipline and that you can work toward the goals you set for yourself steadily and without wavering. Whatever task you undertake, you work at patiently, with thorough organization and method, leaving no stone unturned. You are independent, even a loner, because having other people around may seem to distract you from your purposes. When you are older, you will be a very dependable person, because you have worked out your own methods and have proved to everyone that they work. When you are working for a living, your relations with employers should also be good, because they will know you can be trusted to do a job well and take responsibility.

“I empower”
Best quality: Transformation/Worst quality: Inversion (turning things upside down)
Pluto represents the unconscious urge to transform repressed ego-desire energies into group-desire energies in order to live out your role in society’s evolution. Pluto represents sexuality (the act itself, as opposed to the energetic desire which is associated with Mars), obsessive desires, transformation, power, and the ingredients of great wealth (investments, banking, loans, debt, mortgages). Pluto has dominion over drastic changes that bring true upheavals. Since Pluto is the slowest-moving planet, an entire generation will share the same Pluto sign, giving it historical importance. Drastic and permanent changes in civilization as a whole can be linked to Pluto's movement through the signs. On a personal level, the House that Pluto occupies in your chart will show how Plutonian energy is manifested in your life. Pluto will transform those things in your life that require regeneration, whether you desire it or not. You may experience dramatic crises or have to endure terrible suffering where Pluto is involved in your chart, but for the purpose of healing. Pluto tears down only to transform and regenerate what has been destroyed. Pluto is associated with recklessness, mental obsession and compulsion, emotional resistance, and overall transcendence. It is also associated with unsolved mysteries, secrets, and taboos.
  • 1st Astrological House
  • The first House is the House of self. This includes self-awareness, the physical body, personality, appearance, personal views on life, self-identity, self-image, early environment, and beginnings; how we initiate, how we're impulsive. Any planets in this house will greatly influence your personality and how others perceive you.
 Pluto in the First House  1st house
You are a very intense person who takes almost everything seriously. You tend to go to extremes, which may make other people uneasy. You enjoy having power over people and being in a position to make changes. It is extremely important that you develop a strong sense of responsibility about using power, because you will probably always use it to some extent, and if you are not careful you can create problems in your life and the lives of those around you. Other people will either be drawn to you very strongly or will not like you at all.

Pluto Conjunct Ascendant
The conjunction of Pluto to the Ascendant means that you have the power to determine the kind of world that can be constructed from its available resources. You can play an important role in urging the public to eliminate the parasites who cause decaying social conditions and the depraved human qualities that lead to them. Because you speak and conduct yourself with authority, no one dares dismiss you as a troublesome critic. You are not easily aroused to taking action unless the situation is serious. If it is, you will use every trick you can devise to compel those responsible to take the actions that are necessary to restore order from chaos. In general you know what you want out of life and are ready to make any investment in talent and effort to realize your goals. Choose your adversaries with care, or you could antagonize someone who would deal violently with you. You tend to bring out the worst qualities in people.

Pluto Square Midheaven  
This aspect indicates that you will have to make a special effort to get along with people. It will be difficult to achieve your ambitions unless you are able to get along with others, to give them a constructive part in your goals. Also it is very important that you play the game of life honorably and adhere to high ethical standards. You have a strong desire to bring about change in your world, and you may want to be a reformer and rebuilder. However, you should not try to get power simply for its own sake.
A born psychologist, you should be able to gain great insight into human behavior.

“I think”
Best quality: Expression/Worst quality: Restlessness
Mercury is the planet of intelligence and communication. It governs our rational and intellectual faculties, perception and reason, memory, speaking, and writing. Mercury reflects your capacity to collect, sort, and communicate the knowledge you gain through your experiences and your senses. It reflects the way you see, hear, understand, and assimilate information. Mercury is symbolic of that child-like curiosity that drives your urge to know, and the ability to analyze and reason. Mercury also has to do with transportation and short trips, and the nervous system. The positive manifestations of Mercury include clever speech, eloquence, persuasiveness, success with public speaking and a sharp, quick mind. The more negative manifestations include restlessness, a tendency to be critical, sarcastic, argumentative and sly. The quick wit of Mercury can quickly turn into trickery. Lies, deceit, fraud, swindling, and forgery are examples of Mercury’s negative power. The sign of Mercury in your natal chart shows your style and preferences of communicating and learning. A strong Mercury in one's chart, free of any negative aspects, indicates a brilliant mind.

Mercury in the 12th house
Your mental and communicative abilities will largely be applied in an inner search for spiritual truth and mental enlightenment. Intellectual understanding is related to intuitive mystical guidance and hunches from a mind turned inward - like in meditation. This placement of Mercury is powerful for creative occupations that require your special qualities - acting, writing, art, poetry, singing, music, nursing or humanitarian work. On occasion, your mind may be overpowered by deep emotional eruptions; to retain balance you will need to seek peace, quiet and seclusion.

Mercury Square Midheaven  
Even while you are quite young, you will spend quite a bit of time thinking about your future, but don't expect to make up your mind for a long time. Your mind is very active, and each new interest you take up will give you a new idea about your future career. You are quite restless and need to be mentally active all the time. You need to keep your mind busy, talk with others and feel that life is moving quickly. You are able to think very clearly, but only if you come out of yourself. Be careful not to say things that work against you. It is possible to make your point without offending others.

Mercury Conjunct Ascendant  
This aspect indicates that even while you are young, talking and exchanging ideas with others is a very important part of your life. You are probably quite restless and always wanting to be on the move. Your mind changes course very quickly, and you go from idea to idea. Avoid being shallow and try to develop enough self-discipline to stay with a subject or project long enough to get something lasting from it. You would be better off in a job that does not tie you down to one spot. This position may also mean that you have some mechanical ability and can do highly skilled work with tools.

Mercury Conjunct Venus  
You like to be surrounded by beauty and are depressed by anything ugly or unpleasant. While you are quite young, you may show some definite artistic ability. Also you appreciate other people's artistic talents.
Perhaps the most important effect of this aspect, however, is that it takes your mind away from narrowly logical thinking. You look for form and beauty in ideas as well as in objects. Also you may think visually, by seeing images in your head rather than just connecting ideas. You want everything you see or think about to be related artistically as well as logically. You talk to people in a way that wins them over. You are very good at soothing hurt feelings and at helping people settle a quarrel fairly.

Mercury in Libra  
You make up your mind very carefully, for you don't like to jump to conclusions. You prefer to spend as much time as possible looking at each choice and weighing every point of view. This can be very useful, but sometimes you take so long that other people get impatient. Every choice looks so good that you find it difficult to choose. Whenever two points of view conflict, you prefer to compromise and combine the two, rather than reject one of them. You are moderate in everything you do and won't ever go to extremes.

“I dream”
Best quality: Idealism/Worst quality: Vagueness
Neptune represents the unconscious urge to dissolve the boundaries of your ego-centeredness in order to ‘lose yourself’ in other realms of being. While Uranusbreaks into our dimension to allow momentary flashes of insight into other realms of existence, Neptune is those other realms. Neptune dissolves life’s patterns in order to teach new meanings in the quest for universal wisdom. Neptune represents things that aren’t quite as they appear, the illusive, and the unreal. It is the planet of receptivity, imagination, cloudiness, confusion, delusion, illusion, and unreality. Neptune is also associated with movies, acting, and compassion. Neptune can indicate mystical visions of a divine creator, or an experience of the primordial chaos before creation (dangerously, the latter can drive one to madness). Neptune can indicate spiritual healing and service to others, or becoming lost in a foggy world of fantasy and dreams. More often than not, Neptune indicates confusion in the House where it resides in your birth chart. A negatively positioned Neptune in the natal chart can indicate a tendency to escape reality. The house and sign will indicate whether it be through mind-altering drugs and alcohol, day-dreaming, sexual addiction, cult worship, psychosis, potential suicide, or others. At its best, Neptune's energy inspires marvelous art, music, theatre, dance, poetry, and film. Above all, Neptune represents the intangible, and makes it very real.
  • 3rd Astrological House
  • The third House is that of communication, which by extension includes one's immediate environment: siblings, neighbors, short journeys, and all forms of transportation. The 3rd house also includes the intellect, the lower mind (details and small bits of information as opposed to the higher mind in 9th house), thinking patterns, and early education (before college). Communication includes messages, deliveries, gossip, phone calls, visits, reading and writing.
Neptune in the 3rd house
Neptune in the Third House may indicate that your imaginative and spiritual potential manifests through an intuitive ability of the mind that is able to tune in to other realms of reality for inspiration, Through sound psychological faculties, spiritual perception and a fruitful, inventive mind. You are given to the investigation of spiritual phenomena and matters pertaining to metaphysics, the occult or the mysterious. Some weird experiences can be expected, perhaps while traveling or in the form of hallucinations or morbid fancies. You appreciate those forms of art and literature that provide an exalted order of inspiration, feelings and intuition.

Neptune Sextile Ascendant  
You are very sensitive to others people's needs and desires, and in many cases you go out of your way to help those whom you love. This reinforces your sense of self- esteem. Also you are able to empathize with others, that is, you can put yourself in their place, which makes you want to ease people's pain whenever you can. These are signs of a highly intuitive and sometimes even psychic mind. You often perceive truths about the world around you that others are blind to. Certainly you love anything mysterious or fantastic, for such ideas help you get in touch with that dimension of the world that others cannot see. If you learn to understand yourself, you can become a very creative individual. You tend to be idealistic about your friends.

“I act”
Best quality: Initiative/Worst quality: Harshness
Mars is the exact opposite of Venus. Whereas Venus represents the female, Mars is all male. Whereas Venus is about harmony, Mars is conflict, aggression, and outright war. Mars is the planet of physical energy. It governs your sex drive, your forcefulness and your aggression. It is associated with your desires and aspirations for emotional, physical, mental and spiritual things that stimulate activity. You have to want something before you reach out and take it; Mars is the heated passion behind action. Mars shows your ability to turn ideas into action. The sign of Mars in your natal chart indicates your vitality, energy level, and style of action. In a female's chart, the Mars sign is one factor suggesting the type of man she attracts. In its highest form, Mars represent your unleashed energy and your human will – initiative. A controlled Mars can give a healthy dose of assertiveness and ambition. At its worst, Mars energy makes one prone to anger, harshness and destructive violence, impulsive behavior, danger, combativeness and every kind of cruelty. It’s up to you to use this force constructively.
Mars in Cancer  
What you do depends on your moods to an unusual degree. When you are feeling positive and cheerful, you act confidently and assertively. But when you are depressed, you are more retiring and much more irritable.
Try not to hold your anger in so much. It is much better to express it than to hold it back so that it gradually poisons your whole mood. Sometimes this position of Mars indicates difficulties and disagreements with your family. However, it is more likely that anything concerning your family, your family background and heritage inspires in you feelings of great loyalty.
  • 10th Astrological House
  • The tenth House is the House of status, honor, community power, prestige, reputation, and professional career. In our society, this includes financial success, but only as it relates to community power and prestige. It's not about gaining "material stuff" as it is in the 2nd house. The 10th house wants success for the sake of honor and social status.
  • This house includes social foundations (as opposed to personal home foundations in the 4th), recognition, personal achievements, social responsibilities, sense of duty, authority figures, politicians. This House encompasses the most public areas of one's life, and the career that you grow into, as opposed to daily work and odd jobs ruled by the 6th House.
  • As with the 4th House, astrologers are divided over whether the 10th House rules one's mother or father. Those that say the 4th House rules the mother, say the 10th House rules the father, and vice versa. What is clear is that the 4th House rules the nurturing, home-body parent, while the 10th House rules the public, success-focused parent (the parent who "wears the pants").
  • As with the other angular houses, any planets in this house are very important. Planets in the 10th house, the sign on the cusp of the 10th house, and its ruling planet will greatly influence your career and your general reputation in public.
 Mars in the Tenth House  10th house
You want to get ahead in life, and you will work very hard to get there. However, while you are still in the learning stage, you should be careful how you treat authority figures. You don't automatically respect all adults, because you have very high standards for others as well as for yourself. You should probably look for a career in which you can be self-employed or else have a great deal of independent authority. This position of Mars suggests several kinds of jobs, especially those that require a lot of physical energy or hard work.

 Mars Square Pluto  
You have very strong self-assertive energies, and you want to be in control of every situation you are in, which can create problems while you are young. If you do not get your way, you tend to lose your temper and strike out in a blind rage. You may succeed in holding this energy in, but that isn't a good response, either. You must learn to use this energy in a controlled way without suppressing it. You have great ambitions for your life, and you are able to work very hard. But be very careful not to take shortcuts, break rules or seriously violate your own and others' standards of behavior. Also be very careful how you assert yourself, because without meaning to, you may make people uneasy about your intentions, so that they work against you. If you follow the rules and work hard, you should succeed.

Mars Trine Uranus  
You are likely to be very independent, and you need to be given great freedom to determine your own destiny. You will decide very early in life that you must be yourself at all costs. You will be able to get where you want to go in your own way, and usually you know when to back down in the face of resistance from others without losing very much. You are likely to be a leader, not because you want power, but because you are able to see ways of doing things that others do not see until you show them. Others will follow your lead although you, personally, do not care whether or not anyone follows you. Other people will like you for your daring, although they may sometimes question your good sense. They will discover that in the long run you are often right, even though no one else could see it at the time.

Ascendant in Libra, Venus in the Twelfth House
At the time of your birth the zodiacal sign of Libra was ascending in the horizon. Its ruler Venus is located in the twelfth house. This denotes a life in which the native adopts an attitude which is courteous, kind, and affectionate. People with Libra Ascendant are basically motivated by feeling and emotion rather than intellectuality. Your life will demonstrate your keenness of observation, and a tendency to effect comparisons largely of an aesthetic nature. You will not display too much energy in your actions and, therefore, there is a tendency toward following routine and the lines of the least resistance. You are a sympathetic person who seeks the approval of others and is also very adaptable. Your intuition is remarkable and you derive sensual gratification from engaging in social intercourse, by loving all social aspects of life. If you do not control this tendency to be so involved in human relationships, you may become too attached and over dependent. Some restlessness, changeability and lack of persistence is noted in your life. Your main feature is that of constantly favoring the fusing of two things or people together.
Unfortunately, this involvement with harmonizing and adjusting people to one another, tends to make the native a little unrealistic and lacking in action. You will be, however, easy going and congenial, socially oriented and preoccupied with adornments, clothing, social conventions, standards, and aesthetics. In love, if you cause the relationship to be a serious one, you will find that the affair is the consequence of your own interest in flattering yourself rather than to satisfy any profound emotion. Professionally, you will be inclined to activities which require a high degree of culture and even artistic knowledge. This position indicates a life that will be very inconspicuous and with hidden qualities. The position of Venus here could indicate that you will become involved in clandestine love affairs. Some strong attachments which you will form, will greatly benefit you. You may be inclined to commit yourself to a partner early in life. There is also a possibility of divorce or separation, followed by a second attachment. In any instance, you have the inborn tendency to give your love generously and to assist your loved one with all the strength of your character.

Libra Rising  
With this rising sign, you are likely to be attractive to others and probably popular. Instead of using force of character to persuade people to do something your way, you use charm. You dislike unpleasantness in any form, so you do your best to keep everything peaceful. In this same spirit, you like to dress elegantly, perhaps even flashily. You may develop an early taste for art, music and literature. In your desire to be agreeable, you must be sure not to comp